Thursday, February 22, 2007

No music or lyrics

I do not know what exactly to say.

I do not know how exactly to say that too.

I don't think I am in a mood to hear concerned voices. I guess I have had enough of them - voices - in my head.

I think I am floating. I am shielding myself from caring too much about what I feel. It helps.

There is no pain, you are receding.
A distant ships smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves.
Your lips move but I cant hear what you're sayin.
When I was a child I had a fever.
My hands felt just like two balloons.
Now I got that feeling once again.
I cant explain, you would not understand.
This is not how I am.
I have become comfortably numb.

I also allow myself to be too exhausted by work. That helps, too.
My days are spent in front of a computer. Once every seven days I become a vampire, shunning light and sleeping the day away. I don't think I talk to anyone else.
Was I like this? Was I always chasing the dream of a better world?

When I was a child I caught a fleeting glimpse,
Out of the corner of my eye.
I turned to look but it was gone.
I cannot put my finger on it now.
The child is grown, the dream is gone.
I have become comfortably numb.

Totto, I don't think I am in Kansas any more.

Show me the way to find myself
cause I'm nowhere in the darkness of these days

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Don’t think u r the only one with these kind of thoughts. All of us feel the same. Ask ** also. I think he also feels the same. All of us r going thru that phase of life where we doubt our selves; our dreams seem vague or unreal or not worth it. it happens. Just don’t lose hope in yourself. Loneliness sweeps all of us in waves and overwhelms us. But it is upto us to fight it out. just don’t think of it.

Indulge in someother activity. That keeps everything away. Even if u r sleeping it is fine. Just don’t think. It is the root cause of all evil. I know it mite look like i am saying things just for the sake of it. but i know what u r going thru. Been there in the pits and not fully back but am recovering..

Plan the trip and let me know. Will surely come, boss agreeing and time and place agreeing. Will call madam also.

And sweety thx for the orkut testimonial. It was nice sweet. I thot a million times b4 accepting cos i don’t want arbit people reading it. But i thot what the heck and went ahead and accepted it.