Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Advance Notice

My friends, when and if I die
Be it from accidents or diseases, or self decided
I would request you to honour my decision
The same way you honour me now.

Do not grieve for me, or think that you could have done something.
You are important, but not that much
You are wise, but not to that extent
You can do things, but not all of them.
Don't be selfish, its my life.

Instead, pour out shots of tequila as potent as my zest for life
Generous quantities of red wine with the intense colour of my thoughts
Share many a story about me around a warm winter fire.

How, I made you laugh and cry
Made you angry and was your sedative
How I stood for truth and lied so easily-
Chew on them, along with some of my favourite food.

My friends, if I ever make a sudden journey,
Do not feel betrayed, do not fret
Even if it a surprise
For both me and you
Or something carefully planned by the scatterbrain me.

Feel happy for me, respect my choice
Live life the way I wanted to live
Making mistakes, happy, passionate
Enjoying long walks, good songs and dancing all night

Divide my books and junk ornaments
Collection of bags and curious dolls
Pick and choose; take everything between yourselves
Do drop in at my parent's home in blue moon nights.

Live your life such that
I can leave mine without guilty
Safe in the knowledge
Of you taking care of yourself and my loved ones.

Amen.


A junior of mine committed suicide. It started me thinking on how I would want my friends to live and feel if I were to die - from freak accidents, diseases or a suicide. Not that I'm planning to step onto the train - I plan to live life fully and for a long time. So rest assured.

But if I were to die in an accident, then this is what I would expect my friends to do...

3 comments:

KD said...

You must have read/seen/heard the steve jobs address at stanford where he talks about awareness about death being an enormous motivation to live life to the fullest.. i think it worked on me for a while, but then it became something that I expect...cant make out the diffeence..anyways

Wonderfully written.. hey we are meeting on 9th/10th.. Lemme scrap yu too

karthik said...

"Chew on them, along with some of my favourite food"

Im a veggie..dont worry. will ask someone else to do that for me..

"Feel happy for me, respect my choice
Live life the way I wanted to live
Making mistakes, happy, passionate
Enjoying long walks, good songs and dancing all night"

Amen.. I ll do that (what abt ur blog...???..u didnt leave that to someone ? )

"Divide my books and junk ornaments"

will get all ur books :)) (no sharing is allowed). Ornaments,dolls are of no use to me....

"Live your life such that
I can leave mine without guilty
Safe in the knowledge
Of you taking care of yourself and my loved ones"

absolutely good one... This paragraph brought me to life....a whiff of fresh air after 5 days......
btw i know that this post was coming....This is a fitting tribute to CM.

@kd
well said.. agreeing with ur comments abt awarness of death.

Vinitha said...

really interesting style of writing...you have a fan in me. but really disappointed by the reference made to the death of steve irwin by a sting ray. he is a legendary wildlife warrior and dedicated his whole life for it.well i live in australia and just happen to know a lot about his activities....